Beauty

 Who was it I wonder, who first voiced the now popular aphorism 'be careful what you wish for'?

Shortly after writing the previous post, three months back, about 'wide achievers', ageism and my lack of success seeking employment, I was offered and obliged to accept a position at a local hardware store. With my available time for reading, thinking and writing thereby dramatically shortened I am resorting once again, as was always my stated intention from the outset I concede, to publishing extracts from works by other voices than my own. I have, for a number of years now, when reading (or viewing) developed a habit of recording passages that particularly resonate for me. I am aware this is an activity rife with potential for the ever-present threat of the perceived ills of confirmation bias, but I like to believe that it is also frequently an exercise in recognising and indeed delighting in the discovery of new or even conflicting viewpoints to one's own; avenues into new potential directions of thought and belief.

Many of these notations of mine, in a small collection of hand-written notebooks, are brief phrases or short sentences that perhaps fail to stand alone in a forum such as this, removed from the context in which they were originally published. Therefore, I shall endeavour to focus instead upon longer passages and, where possible, bring together disparate sources which nonetheless share a commonality of theme. My first such theme, one which is of great importance in my life and to which I suspect I shall return, is beauty.

The following extracts are from three sources and move from reflections upon our built, physical, environment, through perceptual occurrences and responses, to some final lyrical and metaphysical observations.

Firstly, some passages from The Architecture of Happiness by Alain de Botton.

Note: Points of ellipsis and square brackets indicate my own edits, for brevity and clarity.

'Yet if someone was to ask us what was the matter, we might not know how to elaborate on the malign features of our environment … However, these can in the end always be traced back to nothing more occult than a failure of empathy, to architects who forgot to pay homage to the quirks of the human mind, who allowed themselves to be seduced by a simplistic vision of who we might be, rather than attending to the labyrinthine reality of who we are.' (p. 248)

'In medieval Japan, poets and Zen priests directed the Japanese towards aspects of the world to which Westerners have seldom publicly accorded more than negligible or casual attention: cherry blossoms, deformed pieces of pottery, raked gravel, moss, rain falling on leaves, autumn skies, roof tiles and unvarnished wood. A word emerged, wabi, of which no Western language, tellingly, has a direct equivalent, which identified beauty with unpretentious, simple, unfinished, transient things … [By embracing it] we will have learnt to appreciate a beauty that we were not born seeing. And, in the process, we will puncture the simplistic notion, heavily promoted by purveyors of plastic mansions, that what a person currently finds beautiful should be taken as the limit of all that he or she can ever love.' (p. 260)

'It is books, poems and paintings which often give us the confidence to take seriously feelings in ourselves that we might otherwise never have thought to acknowledge … Likewise, there must have been little beauty in old stones before Japanese priests and poets began writing about them … The property developer's reflexive defence of existing tastes constitutes, at base, a denial that human beings can ever come to love anything they have not yet noticed. But even as it plays with the language of freedom, this assertion suppresses the truth that in order to choose properly, one must know what there is to choose from.' (p. 262)

'We owe it to the fields that our houses will not be the inferiors of the virgin land they have replaced. We owe it to the worms and the trees that the buildings we cover them with will stand as promises of the highest and most intelligent kinds of happiness.' (p. 267)

Next, two brief extracts from the wonderful In Praise of Shadows by Jun'ichiro Tanizaki.

'The quality that we call beauty, however, must always grow from the realities of life, and our ancestors, forced to live in dark rooms, presently came to discover beauty in shadows, ultimately to guide shadows towards beauty's ends.'

'If light is scarce then light is scarce; we will immerse ourselves in the darkness and there discover its own particular beauty.'

Finally, the following two short monologues are from the cinema release version of the film American Beauty, written by Alan Ball. The first is voiced by the character Ricky Fitts as he shares with his neighbour, Jane Burnham, a video he recorded of a plastic bag caught in a small whirlwind on an urban street. It is perhaps, for me, the most beautiful and memorable scene in the film.

'It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there was this electricity in the air. You could almost hear it. Right? And this bag was just - dancing - with me. Like a little kid, begging me to play with it - for fifteen minutes. That's the day I realised that there was this entire life, behind things, and this incredibly benevolent force that wanted me to know that there was no reason to be afraid - ever. The video's a poor excuse, I know, but it helps me remember. I need to remember. Sometimes there's so much - beauty - in the world I feel like I can't take it and my heart is just going to - cave in.'

The second, which contains an almost identical phrase concerning beauty, is a voice-over by the character Lester Burnham at the conclusion of the film, seemingly during or after his death.

'I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes, the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all. It stretches on forever like an ocean of time. For me it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars. And yellow leaves from the maple trees that lined our street. Or my grandmother's hands and the way her skin seemed like paper. And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's new Firebird. And Janey - and Janey - and Carolyn.

I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax and stop trying to hold onto it. And then it flows through me like rain, and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about I'm sure, but don't worry, you will someday.'

Unwanted

 Like so very many others across the globe at present, one year into the viral pandemic finds me also one year into unwanted unemployment. Unemployed, but alive and largely otherwise unaffected means I am indeed one of the very lucky. We in Australia have been, by and large, very fortunate compared to the deaths and suffering we continue to witness on a daily basis elsewhere on our fragile and benighted planet. It has however allowed me opportunity to think and write once again for the first time in some while. The thrust of what follows may seem overly selfish in its focus as it is clearly driven by my own current circumstances, yet I hope its wider applicability may be seen and valued; perhaps even acted upon?

I think I may have touched upon this previously when mentioning Roman Krznaric's inspiring book The Wonderbox: Curious Histories of How to Live. In chapter four 'Work' he proposes 'that many people eventually seek jobs that provide a more profound sense of purpose; work which is an end in itself rather than a means to an end, and which helps them feel that they're not wasting their lives'. This of course overlooks the very, very many among humanity that have not the privilege of such luxury, living as they might in a desperate day-to-day struggle for their very continued existence, but for now I too am going to acknowledge yet, with apologies, pass over this aspect of lived reality.

Roman identifies and discusses four purposes that 'stand out in the history of work: being driven by our values; pursuing meaningful goals; obtaining respect; and using the full array of our talents'. The last of these four he discusses in the section 'Talents: high achiever - or wide achiever?' and it is this particular topic I will expand upon. Partly I wish to discuss the language we have employed around these two options but more so I wish to draw attention to the value judgements inherent in our language choices - the semantic history and connotations our words and phrases come burdened with and which can actually be to the detriment of an individual's self-image, self-worth and employment prospects.

Poor Adam Smith gets blamed for a great deal and whilst it is true he recognised the 'torpor of the mind' threatening 'the man whose life is spent in performing a few simple operations' and who 'has no occasion to exert his understanding, or to exercise his invention', the fact remains that his seminal work The Wealth of Nations and its promotion of the concept of division of labour has at least in part driven our contemporary obsession with specialisation. Yes, there are benefits, both personal and cultural, to be gained from individuals pursuing a topic of study to its apogee, plus it has frequently been observed that the extent of humanity's knowledge is now so vast that even greatly sub-divided fields of study might contain single strands of interest that yet remain too large and complex for one person to master. But is this in itself sufficient justification for the apparent devaluing of those for whom such a singular focus holds no appeal?

My focus will be upon the language around Roman's 'wide achiever' but let's first make a simple list of some of the words we associate with the high achievers. A quick scan of entries for 'expert' in a thesaurus or two throws up synonyms such as master, adept, authority, professional, specialist, virtuoso, ace, giant, maestro, whiz, gun, hot-shot, prodigy, wunderkind, genius, boffin, scholar, old hand, veteran, connoisseur, elder, sage, oracle, philosopher, guru, dab hand, doyen and savant. Words that I think we might all imbue with principally positive connotations? In earlier times I feel perhaps we held a similar regard for those we believed excelled in a broad range of disciplines or occupations? I believe it was with respect or even awe that we employed expressions such as Renaissance man, universal man and polymath, but our language seems now to have slipped to the perhaps lesser regard we accord the current multi-disciplinarian, many-sided man or all-rounder. And does anyone really want to be considered, or referred to, simply as a generalist, jack-of-all-trades or Roman's cleverly positivised wide-achiever?

The simple truth remains however that many among us are just not 'wired' for an enduring interest in, and prolonged pursuit of, a single passion or obsession. Their interests are many and widely varied. Some, it is true, may do no more than dabble in disparate fields whilst others might excel in many and even here our natural tendency is to value the latter over the former. Excellence is seemingly always regarded as a superior goal than that of 'mere' competence? What is it within our societies and cultures, indeed perhaps within human nature itself, that promotes a disregard for those among us whose accomplishments are 'good', preferring instead to always seek the 'better' and only truly value the 'best'? Surely within a global populace approaching eight billion, for the vast majority attainment of 'good' in one area of endeavour is commendable and to be 'good' within multiple disciplines equals or surpasses 'better' or even 'best' in a singular pursuit? I should like to be a 'good' partner, parent, friend, draftsman, cook, brewer, handyman, driver, designer, photographer, cyclist, swimmer, writer, artist, curator, consultant, builder, first-aider, gardener, teacher, salesman, manager, mentor, youth worker, lover, reader, researcher, printer, singer, student, surfer, philosopher … and so much more, before I would desire to be the 'best' at anything. Indeed, I have been 'good' at all the above listed occupations, though no doubt I could be 'better' at many.

And yet, in our culture's default determinant of individual worth, as evinced in the commonly accepted first question asked of newly met acquaintances, 'What do you do?', we're frequently encouraged to judge or rank their response according to their preferably high level of attainment in a singular occupation. Nowhere is this more evident than within the employment market. The entire ethos is one of seeking individuals who are the very best within the narrow confines of a highly specialised role or position description. Rare indeed is the stated intent that of finding a rounded and balanced individual, competent across a wide range of diverse skills, with understandings of and attributes applicable to multiple areas of a business's structure and undertakings. Today, even managers, directors and CEOs are appointed if they are perceived to be the best of their 'kind' that applied, though they may have little or no experience or skills beyond those attained in a management degree and frequently no knowledge whatsoever of the actual business of the company or agency.

Which leaves those of us, like myself, who have pursued a life wherein each new opportunity to broaden our range of knowledge, skills, experience and competence is embraced with wholehearted delight and enthusiasm, perceived as little more than ne'er-do-wells with limited focus or staying power and a complete lack of ambition. Rather than 'wide-achievers, we are labelled 'under-achievers'! Often this is far from the truth. Rather, it is simply that our ambition, focus and perseverance is not limited to, or constrained by, an almost obsessive compulsion to be the 'best' at a highly specialised pursuit. Just perhaps it might be argued that our very flexibility - of curiosity, capability and adaptability - is our greatest strength. Not constrained within the rigid confines of specialist dogma, we might bring new ideas and fresh insights to all we embark upon.

Certainly, over the past decade there has been an increased cultural curiosity in, and valuing of, multi-disciplinary, cross-disciplinary and inter-disciplinary working modes (see below for definitions) but these are still often seen as collaborative pursuits involving numerous specialists. Surely there is value also in finding this flexibility of thought, this neurological plasticity, within individuals also? But I fear such a desire is little more than a quixotic dream. The pace of change across an entire society is slow indeed, even when change is desired, and I for one perhaps no longer have the time to truly benefit from such a cultural shift. Whilst once we valued the wisdom of our elders - which was deemed of even greater value because indeed it was gained across, and applicable to, many aspects of life and living - the contemporary mindset values almost exclusively the perceived dynamism and potential of youthful exuberance and innovation; fresh ideas and constant 'progress'. Those, like myself, who have passed the half-century mark, are often judged principally by our age alone; falsely seen as being out-of-date and rigidly stuck in a rut of preconceived notions. Nothing could be further from the truth.

Despite all we have to offer, especially those among us who embrace our 'wide-achievements', we are indeed largely, and oh-so-wastefully, relegated to the employment scrap-heap. We are seen as un-employable. We are the unwanted.

 

Disciplinarities - Definitions by Alexander Refsum Jensenius

Intra-disciplinary: working within a single discipline.

Cross-disciplinary: viewing one discipline from the perspective of another.

Multi-disciplinary: people from different disciplines working together, each drawing on their disciplinary knowledge.

Inter-disciplinary: integrating knowledge and methods from different disciplines, using a real synthesis of approaches.

Trans-disciplinary: creating a unity of intellectual frameworks beyond the disciplinary perspectives.